Try it on my own

I’m wiser now
I’m not the foolish girl you used to know
So long ago
I’m stronger now
I’ve learned from my mistakes which way to go
And I should know
I put myself aside to do it in your way
But now I need to do it all alone

And I am not afraid to try it on my own
I don’t care if I’m right or wrong
I’ll live my life the way I feel no matter what I’ll keep it real
You know
Time for me to do it on my own

It’s over now
I can’t go back to living through your eyes
To many lies
And if you don’t know by now
I can’t go back to being someone else
Not anymore
I never had the chance to do things my way
So now it’s time for me to take control

I start again go back to one
I’m running things in my way
Cant stop me now I’ve just begun
Don’t even think about
It there aint no way about it
I’m taking names go down the line
Yes I’m gonna take my turn
It’s time for me to
Finally stand alone
Stand alone
Whitney Houston

You know what? I’m not afraid anymore….Look out world…I’m on my way!!!!
xOx

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Published in: on August 28, 2012 at 9:00 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Thoughts for today and three little inspiring quotes…

Someone once told me that what angers you about others is often a characteristic you will find within yourself. Recently I have come to understand what is meant by this.

If I look back upon my life I can see the same situations appearing over and over again. I sat down this weekend to ask myself ‘why?’

Why do I end up in the same situations? Why do I end up acting the same way? Why do I always trust the wrong people? Why do others feel they sometimes cannot trust me?

I have taken apart countless situations from my past and have found there to be two route problems; how I have behaved and how others have behaved. This was not an easy task, easy being to blame others and pretend I had nothing to do with what went wrong. However, finding the courage to understand and accept my part in certain issues not only allows me to change how I react but also allows me to stop them from happening again.

(This may all seem a bit vague as I’m not really willing to go into what has happened to spark this off…apologies but bare with me – there is a point to this blog – I promise!!)

I have come to realise that my behaviour usually consists of three things:

1. I have a biiiiggg, goby mouth at times and more often than not, what I say as a reaction is nearly always interpreted as my true feelings.
2. I have an uncanny ability to trust the wrong people (confidence issue – untrustworthy people are usually the people who will build you up, making you feel good about yourselves.)
3. I am quick to react rather than finding out the facts (which is ironic considering my conscious decision to over-think every action I make)

The above I can now identify as present in most of my past. They are characteristics I have identified in myself because they usually bug the hell out of me in others.

If certain habits are present in my life then how can I justify my anger at others when I represent the same things? I cannot change another person, it is their choice to decide how they want to live and the person they want to be. But I can try and change my bad habits/characteristics. I don’t feel that anyone has the right to mouth off about others (including me) when not one of us is perfect in any way.

So what am I going to do about it I hear you ask?

I have made a little list of my goals due to start this week:

* To put a stop to these irritating things I keep doing (this will be a gradual process but the point is – I’m starting)
* To not rise to the anger I feel when others hurt me (getting angry cannot be avoided but the important factor here is how you react to such anger)
* To always find out the facts first before making any decision
* To be aware that people may not want to change and to accept them as they are
* To keep myself to myself, if you don’t tell people your life’s story then you cannot blame them for passing the information on

Man, this whole ‘finding out who you are’ journey is epic, but stressful!!

So there you have it. My thoughts for the day, after a long and fairly crappy yet insightful week.

To finish off my thoughts I wanted to share with you the following three quotes…….

Arguing with a fool proves there are two.
Doris M. Smith

Be courteous to all, but intimate with few;
and let those be well-tried before you give them your confidence.
George Washington

Look to be treated by others
as you have treated others.

Publius Syrus

Have a good day all xOx

Published in: on August 19, 2012 at 11:00 am  Comments (1)  
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I Will Be

I haven’t blogged much recently and yes this blog is another lyrics blog but bare with me….these songs are really important at the moment and are a way of expressing my thoughts and feelings.. I’ll be back writing partly interesting blogs in no time =D

The world seems so cold
When I face so much all alone
A little scared to move on
And knowing how fast I have grown
And I wonder just where I fit in
Oh, the vision of life in my head

I will be strong on my own
I will see through the rain
I will find my way
I will keep on traveling this road
Till I finally reach my dream
Till I’m living and I’m breathing My destiny

I can’t let go now
Even when darkness surrounds
But if I hold on,
I will show the world
All the things that you never expected to see
From little old me, this sad girl

It comforts me, oh, it keeps me
Alive each day of my life
Always guiding me, providing me
With the hope I desperately need
Well I gotta believe
There’s something out there meant for me
I get on my knees, praying I will receive
The courage to grow and the faith to know.

xOx

Published in: on August 17, 2012 at 3:36 pm  Leave a Comment  
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On with the show….

Empty spaces
What are we living for?
Abandoned places
I guess we know the score
On and on
Does anybody know what we are looking for

Another hero
Another mindless crime
Behind the curtain
In the Pantomime
Hold the line
Does anybody want to take it anymore

The show must go on
The show must go on
Inside my heart is breaking
My make-up may be flaking
But my smile still stays on

Whatever happens
I’ll leave it all to chance
Another heartache, another failed romance
On and on
Does anybody know what we are living for?

I guess I’m learning
I must be warmer now
I’ll soon be turning
Round the corner now
Outside the dawn is breaking
But inside in the dark I’m aching to be free

The show must go on
The show must go on
Inside my heart is breaking
My make-up may be flaking
But my smile still stays on

My soul is painted
Like the wings of butterflies
Fairytales of yesterday
Will grow but never die
I can fly my friends

The show must go on
The show must go on
I’ll face it with a grin
I’m never giving in
On with the show

I’ll top the bill I’ll overkill
I Have to find the will to carry on
On with the show
On with the show
The show must go on…

I couldn’t have put it better myself!! xOx

Published in: on August 11, 2012 at 9:34 am  Leave a Comment  
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BeLiEvE

Believe that
Endings are
Life’s
Interesting
Expeditions through
Various
Entrances.

BELIEVE in God.
BELIEVE in love.
BELIEVE in me.

BELIEVE!

 

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Be…

Published in: on August 1, 2012 at 9:24 pm  Leave a Comment  
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A short poem

“I wrote your name in the sand
but the waves washed it away.

Then I wrote it in the sky
but the wind blew it away.

So I wrote it in my heart
and that’s where it will stay.”

Author unknown. August 2012.

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