The Cherry Orchard

“With her narrow outlook she can’t understand that we’re above love. To rid ourselves of the pettiness and the illusions which stop us being free and happy, that’s the whole meaning and purpose of our lives.”
~Trofimov, The Cherry Orchard, by Anton Chekhov.

Published in: on October 10, 2012 at 2:59 pm  Leave a Comment  
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**Thoughts For The Week**

I hate lessons that have to be learnt the hard way, but then, if lessons were easy to learn – they wouldn’t be lessons right?!

I have got a bug. No! Not A bug. THE bug! The performing bug. I just blinking knew it would return to haunt me at some point in my life and here it is right at the time I least expected I would need it….

During the last few months I have found myself re-living insecurities, forcing myself into situations I am very uncomfortable with; attempting to second guess the feelings and emotions of others and facing a demon which has troubled me for many years. All of which catapulted at me within the space of one classroom, during one lesson. The question is not how I could have let this happen…again, but rather, what am I, as a teacher, going to do about it? Eeeek!!

Racking my brains for professional ways to get a point across to my pupils, without them further intimidating me or their peers, is very challenging. Lining them all up against a wall and screaming “BULLYING IS NOT OK” is the best idea I have come up with so far.

This evening I sat with a cuppa in one hand and my wonderful iPod in my ears. I sat with no background noise and just focused on the music each song would play; on the words that would enter my mind in such a striking sense. It is funny how a song, one simple song, can transport you to a different place. How one song can envelop your whole being, making emotions surge through you body faster than the blood pumps around you. Tonight I was taken back to times when I was low; unhappy. Times where I couldn’t escape the intimidation and humiliation that I would face just by waking up each morning. I felt sick to my stomach remembering those times. And yet in the painful memories I remembered what pulled me through….faith, music, dance and drama. As much of a pain in the ass being a wanna-be-performer was to myself and those around me, I got through some of the hardest times of my teenage years by getting on that stage. 

As an adult, and especially as a teacher, I find it utterly heart-breaking watching pupils bully and intimidate their peers; more so than the bullying I was a victim of. At 16 I finally realised that this kind of behaviour was not acceptable in my life – that it was not acceptable full stop! It is my mission to teach every pupil of mine about equality – about being who you truly are despite what others think of you. But what do you do when you aren’t getting through? I do what I always do….I run to the stage.

Performing is my therapy; it is my way of dealing with life’s challenges. Whether that be part of a group, on a stage or in front of my own mirror…..performing is my escape. If I can channel all my anger and my emotions into one bundle of adrenalin, then I know I can perform to the best of my ability. Once I have performed I feel so elated that the anger I previously felt, doesn’t seem as bad. Whether I am teaching Drama or English, Maths or Science I aim to encourage all of my pupils to focus on their task, rather than what their peers or I think. Easier said then done I know but the basic implications that they have the right to be individual – to be themselves -speaks wonders for them and for their work.

Facing the issue of bullying once again in my adult life is something I have desperately wanted to avoid. This time around I may not be the victim of bullying but I am baring witness to such acts. Bullying is NOT ok people!!! As much as my peers or my pupils may hate me I will continue to enforce this – BULLYING IS NOT OK!! 

Thankfully my performing bug has returned and not only to help me but to help my pupils also. I want to encourage and inspire my students through the issues that they are facing in life but most of all, I want my pupils to realise that being different is ok – being different is beautiful.

Life is difficult…we are all very aware of this but finding something or someone to help you through its challenges, makes your journey that little bit less daunting. Performing may not be your option but something will be. Whatever or however you choose to fight through life’s barriers remember – you are beautiful in every way. Don’t ever let anyone tell you otherwise.  


Published in: on February 1, 2012 at 9:01 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Musical Theatre ~ I Love You So!!

Today’s post (one of two) is dedicated to the musicals…the musicals that I love and cherish! Musicals captivate a very large part of my being – I love listening to them, learning about them, being in them and, of course, watching them. Musical Theatre ~ I love you so….

The Phantom Of The Opera
~My favourite Musical EVER!!

The singing, the acting; the dancing, the masquerades; the enchantment, the mystery. The daring act of loving two men at the same time. But who should Christine choose? Raul; the sensible, secure protector who loves her and sees her as his perfect suitor. Or the Phantom; the magical, passionate, enticing gentleman who pursues her through a musical connection. A difficult decision to make. Who would you choose?

Sunset Boulevard
~’As if we never said goodbye’

Murder, Madness and a self-conflicted recluse. Sunset Boulevard tells the tale of Norma, a once goddess of the screen, who wants to make a comeback. Sunset Boulevard offers everything you want from a musical, including some incredible renditions of ‘As If We Never Said Goodbye’ (Chris Colfer, Barbara Streisand and Glen Close)

~’And then what happened? We both reached for the gun.’

There has never been more drama than in the 1920’s Chicago. Murder, sex, fights, gin, liquor and jazz…and that is all in a nights work for Billy Flynn, lawyer to Velma Kelly and Roxie Hart. Chicago is enticing, Chicago is dramatic, Chicago allows you to escape into a world were crime is an art! (My other half and I went to see Chicago at the West End recently and it was amazing!! Men, this is definitely a musical for you…I hardly heard a peep out of my other half)

~’Don’t cry for me Argentina’

(You may not be expecting this musical from me but I remember watching this when I was ALOT younger and really loving the soundtrack. I succumbed to the Evita lovers and watched the movie version with my Mother. I’m not a huge Madonna fan but this was utterly beautiful.) Evita, captures the wonderful story and life of Eva Peron; a wanna be actress who rose to fame through her charity work and political attributes. A stunning story that breaks your heart in places.


“Let the dream begin, let your darker side give in to the power of the music of the night.”
~Andrew Lloyd Webber, Phantom Of the Opera.


….Of the Week

…..Of the week goes to Pretty Little Liars….a freaking awesome American “who-done-it” series.

Although the UK are yet awaiting the Second series of PPL we still have the first season to keep us going.

Lucy Hale as Aria

Ashley Benson as Hanna

Shay Mitchell as Emily

Troian Bellisario as Spencer

….these Pretty Little Liars have secrets; secrets that are about to be exposed by their blackmailer ‘A’. If that wasn’t enough, after the disapperance of their friend Alison, the Pretty Little Liars find themselves being framed for her possible murder.

If the storyline isn’t enough to entice you then maybe the eye candy will….

Go on….give Pretty Little Liars a go. I’d love to hear your thoughts on who ‘A’ is!!!!

Enjoy xOx

Published in: on January 21, 2012 at 5:10 pm  Leave a Comment  
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