tHiNgS tUeSdAy

***NEW BLOG POST ALERT***

tUeSdAyS now belong to alllllll tHiNgS ME!
This week I am going to mention a few tHiNgS as I haven’t posted for a while but after this week expect a post dedicated to one tHiNg ME

tHiNgS I am proud of 
With a girls holiday fast approaching it was time to give myself a kick up the bum and get back into training. With my desired bikini body (Cheryl Cole of course) shoved in my face every day I’m really trying hard to real my goal. My start wasn’t great I’ll be honest, opting for ‘cheats’ here and there and everywhere. However, so far this week I’ve really bashed it out and have stuck to my plan. Today was especially difficult on the hunger side of things (especially still having LENT to contend with) but having looked in the mirror tonight and not having to see my bloated tummy makes me feel really proud of myself for pushing through the pain.

Bring on tomorrow’s body obliteration I say!!!!!!!

tHiNgS I had forgotten
Peppermint Tea is soooooooo freakin awesome – I have always loved this stuff and cannot remember what was going through my mind to make me stop drinking it! Well looking forward to making my Peppermint iced-Tea/Peppermint Tea cocktails once Spring officially hits.

tHiNgS I am learning
Ok brace yourself for this one: I have recently learnt that…..I can actually be patient. I know it’s unbelievable right?!
Reacting in the heat of the moment has often been my forte but I now know that it never solves anything – it usually makes things worse. However, over the last month or so I’ve really learnt how to take a step back from a situation. Learning this has made me realise that certain situations aren’t as bad as they seem after a night or two’s sleep. Plus, with the initial anger removed I can focus on what I want to do and can then make a decision on how to react. A hard lesson to learn this one but I think I may have finally got it – HOOOORRRAAAAAYYYYYY!!!!!

tHinGs I am excited about
The most freaking, rad and totes awesome legend that is Mr Justin Timberlake released his MUCH AWAITED AND LONGED FOR album today and I was righht out there to grab my copy!! It is more epic than I could have imagined and wanted and I am soooooo excited to make some memories to his fudging sweeeet music!!

xOx

Published in: on March 19, 2013 at 10:14 pm  Comments (1)  
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I bruise easily

My skin is like a map
Of where my heart has been
And I cant hide the marks
Its not a negative thing
So I let down my guard
Drop my defences down by my clothes
I’m learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily
So be gentle when you handle me
Theres a mark you leave
Like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
Can’t scratch the surface
Without moving me underneath
I bruise easily
I bruise easily

I found your fingerprints
On a glass of wine
Do you know you’re leaving them
All over this heart of mine too
But if I never take this leap of faith
I’ll never know
So im learning to fall
With no safety net to cushion the blow

Anyone who can touch you
Can hurt you or heal you
Anyone who can reach you
Can love you or leave you

Published in: on September 11, 2012 at 8:07 pm  Leave a Comment  
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The legend that is….

“Before you judge me, try hard to love me”
                                                 ~Michael Jackson

Images from Googe images with thanks.

Published in: on July 6, 2012 at 7:51 pm  Leave a Comment  
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A rainy day playlist

10. Justin Timberlake – What goes around
9. Jason Mraz – Beautiful Mess 
8. Leon Jackson – Misty Blue
7. The script – I’m Yours
6. Jamie Cullum – What a difference a day made
5. Ne-yo – So you can cry
4. Britney Spears – Blur
3. Maroon Five – Secret
2. Robert Pattinson – Never Think
1. Katie Melua – Penguins and cats

xOx

Published in: on May 9, 2012 at 2:20 pm  Leave a Comment  
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….Of the week

1. My amazing man sure knows the way to my heart…..

………with a luuuuuurvy heart-shaped Krispy Kreme doughnut of course!! Yum yum =D 

2. These outfits are on my list of Spring must-haves…..totally luff them!!

3. Peppermint tea; need I say anymore.

4. Michael Kiwanuka’s album is out today and I am MEGA excited to listen to it!!

Hope you are all having a good week. Keep an eye out for my lent update tomorrow and project 52 is back this week (and it’s a gooden)

Pictures taken with my own personal phone and from google images with thanks.

xOx

**Thoughts For The Week**

I hate lessons that have to be learnt the hard way, but then, if lessons were easy to learn – they wouldn’t be lessons right?!

I have got a bug. No! Not A bug. THE bug! The performing bug. I just blinking knew it would return to haunt me at some point in my life and here it is right at the time I least expected I would need it….

During the last few months I have found myself re-living insecurities, forcing myself into situations I am very uncomfortable with; attempting to second guess the feelings and emotions of others and facing a demon which has troubled me for many years. All of which catapulted at me within the space of one classroom, during one lesson. The question is not how I could have let this happen…again, but rather, what am I, as a teacher, going to do about it? Eeeek!!

Racking my brains for professional ways to get a point across to my pupils, without them further intimidating me or their peers, is very challenging. Lining them all up against a wall and screaming “BULLYING IS NOT OK” is the best idea I have come up with so far.

This evening I sat with a cuppa in one hand and my wonderful iPod in my ears. I sat with no background noise and just focused on the music each song would play; on the words that would enter my mind in such a striking sense. It is funny how a song, one simple song, can transport you to a different place. How one song can envelop your whole being, making emotions surge through you body faster than the blood pumps around you. Tonight I was taken back to times when I was low; unhappy. Times where I couldn’t escape the intimidation and humiliation that I would face just by waking up each morning. I felt sick to my stomach remembering those times. And yet in the painful memories I remembered what pulled me through….faith, music, dance and drama. As much of a pain in the ass being a wanna-be-performer was to myself and those around me, I got through some of the hardest times of my teenage years by getting on that stage. 

As an adult, and especially as a teacher, I find it utterly heart-breaking watching pupils bully and intimidate their peers; more so than the bullying I was a victim of. At 16 I finally realised that this kind of behaviour was not acceptable in my life – that it was not acceptable full stop! It is my mission to teach every pupil of mine about equality – about being who you truly are despite what others think of you. But what do you do when you aren’t getting through? I do what I always do….I run to the stage.

Performing is my therapy; it is my way of dealing with life’s challenges. Whether that be part of a group, on a stage or in front of my own mirror…..performing is my escape. If I can channel all my anger and my emotions into one bundle of adrenalin, then I know I can perform to the best of my ability. Once I have performed I feel so elated that the anger I previously felt, doesn’t seem as bad. Whether I am teaching Drama or English, Maths or Science I aim to encourage all of my pupils to focus on their task, rather than what their peers or I think. Easier said then done I know but the basic implications that they have the right to be individual – to be themselves -speaks wonders for them and for their work.

Facing the issue of bullying once again in my adult life is something I have desperately wanted to avoid. This time around I may not be the victim of bullying but I am baring witness to such acts. Bullying is NOT ok people!!! As much as my peers or my pupils may hate me I will continue to enforce this – BULLYING IS NOT OK!! 

Thankfully my performing bug has returned and not only to help me but to help my pupils also. I want to encourage and inspire my students through the issues that they are facing in life but most of all, I want my pupils to realise that being different is ok – being different is beautiful.

Life is difficult…we are all very aware of this but finding something or someone to help you through its challenges, makes your journey that little bit less daunting. Performing may not be your option but something will be. Whatever or however you choose to fight through life’s barriers remember – you are beautiful in every way. Don’t ever let anyone tell you otherwise.  

xOx

Published in: on February 1, 2012 at 9:01 pm  Leave a Comment  
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**No Introduction Needed**


You know when music just grabs you and totally takes over your whole being – well tonight I am enjoying one of these moments.  Rather than listening to the whole of a song I am finding myself flicking. Technically this isn’t a bad thing because I have realised there are some AWESOME song intros out there. So with my iPod on shuffle and my headphones in – here are my top 20 song intros….

20. Sum 41 – In Too Deep

19. Rihanna – Man Down

18. Jessie J – Mamma Knows Best

17. Tom Jones – Leave Your Hat On

16. Michael Jackson – Who’s Loving You

15. Lionel Richie – Easy

14. Alice Cooper – School’s Out For Summer

13. ACDC – Back In Black

12. Queen – Another One Bites The Dust

11. Michael Jackson – Billie Jean

10. Muse – Knights Of Cydonia

9. Red Hot Chili Peppers – Can’t Stop

8. Stereophonics – Handbags and Gladrags

7. My Chemical Romance – I’m Not Okay

6. Maroon Five f.Christina Ag – Moves Like Jagger

5. Guns n Roses – Sweet Child O Mine

4. Mutemath – Spotlight

3. Stevie Wonder – Superstition

2. Muse – Supermassive Black Hole

1. Michael Jackson – Beat It

Thank you to those that wrote these amazing intros – you are legends!

Full Stop

xo

Published in: on November 13, 2011 at 8:35 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Songs I secretly love

Inspired by BBC Radio One’s ‘Chris Moyles Show’ I decided to share with the world 10 songs that I secretly love…

10. The Spice Girls – Stop

9. S Club 7 – Bring It All Back

8. Duck Sauce – Barbra Streisand

….. but I LOVE the Diva Fever version better!!

 

 

 

 

 

7. Will Young – Evergreen

 

 

 

 

 

6. Leon Jackson – Don’t Call This Love

5. Gareth Gates – What My Heart Wants To Say

4. Glee Cast (version) – Don’t Stop Believing

 

 

 

 

 

3. Wild Cherry – Play That Funky Music

2. All 4 1 – I swear

1. Elton John – Something About The Way You Look Tonight

So there you have it – it is no longer a secret – 10 songs that I love…bliss!

x

Published in: on June 20, 2011 at 7:25 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Hanz Summer Playlist

15 songs in my 2011 summer playlist:

1. Kari Kimmel – To Make You Smile

2. Jose Gonzalez – Heartbeats

3. David Guetta feat. Rihanna – Who’s That Chick

4. Everly – Stars

5. Stevie Wonder – Superstition

6. Nickleback – Far Away

7. Bethany Joy Galeotti feat. Enation – Feel This

8. David Guetta – Love Don’t Let Me Go

9.  Bruno Mars – Lazy Song

10. Jason Mraz – Live High

11. Iron and Wine – Flightless bird

12. Justin Timberlake – Senorita

13. Jessie J – Mamma Knows Best

14. Jack Johnson – Better Together

15. JLo feat. Pitbull – On The Floor

 

Published in: on June 3, 2011 at 6:49 pm  Leave a Comment  
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