Sermon Sunday

“Change yourself in order to change your circumstance.”~Steve Sanger, Personal Trainer.

I want to start my post today by asking you a question: When you come out of a trial/bad time, do you keep up that significant change that pulled you through or do you fall back into the laziness of your previous thoughts and actions?
I for one know that, when things are going great it is easy for me to slip right back into a previous routine, often the routine that got me into a trial in the first place. No wonder my circumstances start to decline again.

Keeping up a personal change is hard work – sometimes it is even harder that the trial itself. Changing yourself for a better outcome in life is often easier because you know you can do something to drag yourself out of your pit. Yet the last thing you want to do when everything is rosy is to keep working hard for a better future; you want to relax, enjoy the good times as you know the bad times are just lurking around the corner ready to pounce.

Sound familiar?

How does one go about keeping up a personal change?

The key is to fight laziness.

Laziness attacks us all; be it mental or physical laziness, we are all lazy at some point in our lives.The ‘I can’t be bothered’ or ‘I’ll do it later’ attitude is what drags us down into negative pastures. Laziness, in its most common form, is the want for an ‘easier life’ Here is scenario for you:

Imagine you’re a cake lover but you know your love for cake is causing the increase in those extra pounds you have put on. So you decide to cut cake out of your diet. Over a few months you notice the vast improvement in your health by airing your slimmer waist line (at this point I would just like to say that quitting cake alone will not help you lose loads of weight – there is more to weight loss than this but I am using the cake situation as an example – bare with me) As a slimmer, healthier, happier you, you feel proud at what you have achieved. One day you are hungry but ‘cannot be bothered’ to cook. Now that you are slim again you think “ah I’ll grab a piece of cake it’s easier; one piece of cake wont hurt me.” As that one piece become two pieces, you fall back into your previous routine. A few weeks down the line you notice that you feel groggy and your body shape is changing again.

YOU HAVE TO STICK AT YOUR PERSONAL CHANGE!!

My advice is this: Grab laziness by the balls and throw it off a cliff….you don’t need it in your life! Keeping your mind and body active are great ways to keep up a personal change that you have made. There are thousands of surveys that clearly show exercise helps you de-stress and sleep better: a great way to shake off that possible down/negative period you may be going through.

And we all know that an active mind means things get done. Writing a list is a great way to be pro-active and keep up with personal change.

My thoughts this week have aimed to show you that, if you make a personal change, whether to lose weight or to stop being easily angered, making the change is only the first step to bring you out of your trial. You have to work at personal change in order to achieve personal growth. Personal growth allows that change previously made to become deeper, saving you from falling into the pit of having to learn the same lesson over and over again.

So get up off your butt and get yourself sorted…..The New Year is a great time to sort yourself and your life out. It is time that we all overcame that lazy bug and got things done — no more excuses people!

Good luck xOx

P.S. For hints and tips on a healthier you check out the following awesome blogs by my trusted friends; Personal Trainer Steve  http://stevesangerpt.com  and GlutenFreeBlogger Sarah http://theglutenfreeblogger.com

 

Reflection

The Christmas period is a time were we join with family and friends to celebrate being loved, happy and together. But it is also a time were we can reflect back on the year about to pass.

For those of you that know me well you have already witnessed that this has been a tough year for me. I’ve lost love, friendships, family members, jobs, houses and myself. What started out as a year of love, hope and happiness quickly turned into months of endless tears, stress, drunken nights and meltdowns. However, it would be incorrect of me to say that the year is ending in a negative way, because it isn’t. I’ve learnt a lot of lessons this year, about others but more importantly about myself, and with a change of perspective and endless amounts of support I feel more positive about the New Year than any year before.

I am going into the New Year knowing that:

1. I have the best family ever.

My family have been the most supportive people around me. I have needed them like never before and they haven’t let me down. Their support has stretched far beyond the moon and back ranging from finanical help to holding me when I broke down. I would not be here today if it wasnt for my family. They have gotten me through some of the darkest times I’ve ever experiences just by being them. I love my family more than anything in the world and appreciate their love and support more than they will ever know. I am one lucky girl to have them in my life.

2. I have all the people around me that I want in my life.

I am a person who takes family and friendship very seriously…I like to have a close circle of family and friends with whom I can entrust my life. I like and expect these people to keep confidences and be loyal because that is what I give to them. But I’ve realised that not everybody views such bonds the same as me.

For someone who didn’t have many friends through her child-teen years I can now see that I often hold friendships a little too tightly. When other people want to join in the circle I become jealous and, at a fear for myself, I push my friends away. I’ve also noticed this year that not everyone who classes themselves as a friend truly means it; I’ve witnessed people betraying my confidence, spreading rumours and manipulating me. I’ve seen friends change and grow for the better and I’ve seen friends show their true colours.

Several friendships have broken this year, some through no fault of my own but others because I’ve pushed them away. It is true when they say ‘you find out who your real friends are when you go through a bad patch.’ But in taking a long hard look at my friends I’ve decided I don’t need or want certain people in my life anymore.

I don’t want to be friends with the person who lies, who uses me to mock and laugh at. I don’t want to be friends with the person who takes me for granted or the person who spreads rumours. And I most certainly do not want to be friends with the person whose selfishness and spitefullness recently caused pain to my family, her family and myself.

Even after such a tough year I still believe that friendship is important…even more so now. Moving forward I know that I now have, not so much a circle of true friends but more like a doughnut. The jam on the inside of the doughnut are those who I class as my dearest friends, the ones who are there throughout anything, the ones who aren’t afraid to kick me up the bum when I need it, but most importantly these people are the kind of friends that I would be lost without. You are small in number but are so important to me and I am so blessed to have you in my life.

And to those friends who make me smile and laugh and make each day that little bit easier to get through, I am thrilled to have you as my yummy doughnut.

Everyone deserves a second chance in my eyes but for those of who will not be moving forward with me good luck in your lives but good riddance!!!!

3. Don’t know who I am.

On the one hand being completely lost is a terrifying thing, but on the other it is mega exciting. I feel that I’ve lived  my life as a person who was in the shadow of others and as someone who defined themself as others wanted me to be.  Well not anymore people!! In not knowing who I am I know I have so much to learn and so much to experience. I have made a plan to do as much as I can next year…I am going to finally live out some of my longest dreams, and I am also going to tackle new experiences. I know I need to find myself and I’m expecting the bumps in the road, but I’ve changed my perspective and am going to take on this adventure regardless of outside opinions and the possibility that things may go wrong. Here is to a year full of adventure, excitement, journeys, new beginnings and lessons – I cannot wait to get started!

4. Am without a Romeo.

I’ve left this one till last because this is the one were things are still a little raw. I split from someone this year; the person who I believed with my whole heart was the man I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I was devastated and our break-up turned my whole world upside down. Together, we had plans made for next year and to face a future without him broke my heart more than I could ever have imagined. But….I’ve learnt that not everything works out as we may want and am trying to focus on possible positives that this split could bring.

I’ve been taught a lot about men and about love over the last year…my opinions on certain things have changed and my thoughts about the possibility of a future relationship have changed for the better. Men are complicated creatures and I’ve learnt that they do not view love, feelings and emotions in the same way that women do. This may be something I should have known from birth but in knowing this now I feel that I can move forward. The downside to knowing that men are more relaxed when it comes to the ‘l’ word is the worry that they don’t feel for you as much as you feel for them.

However, with everything that has happened this year I have decided to allow myself time to properly heal. This doesn’t mean I’m going to ignore the charms from guys, if they want to buy me a drink they can buy me a drink, but what it does mean is that I’m holding off on a relationship until I feel the time, and the person is right. I don’t know whether anyone will ever be able to fill the massive hole that is currently in my heart but I do know that I am not going to be afraid of loving again, if the right person comes along.

I want to get to the place were I am so happy and comfortable within myself and my life so that if the time is right, letting a guy back into my life with add to the happiness, not give it.

I could have ended this year as miserable as I’ve been over the past few months but through faith, the support of my family and my dearest friends; the tough lessons learnt and the possibilities 2013 will bring, I feel positive and safe. I am moving forward with the right people in my life, I am moving forward with the best lessons learnt, I am moving forward with the aim to explore who I am but most of all I AM MOVING FORWARD!!!!
To my family and friends..thank you so much for everything you have done for me this year…..I could not have gotten through without you all!!!

To that guy……….thank you for loving me for as long as you did – I truly believe our love was real and I will never forget you.

I wish each and everyone of you, around me, and reading this blog, a very HAPPY NEW YEAR! I hope and pray that you all have the best year of your lives.

Here’s to MOVING FORWARD!!

xOx

Published in: on December 31, 2012 at 1:56 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Thoughts for the week: A change in perspective

I remember the very first time (plus a couple more trips) hubby-to-be took me to London….I hated it – you can ask him. I was miserable; no trees, no grass, no perfect blue sky; no silence, no peace and no clean air. London was too busy for me – even crossing the road or catching the tube made me fall apart on the inside and the out. Every early trip was counted down till our return back to the country/beach…I actually started to crave the smell of fresh air and horse poop.

But hubby-to-be persisted with me and I kept going. THE NIGHT was clearly a biiiig change in my opinion of London…..if hubby-to-be went to all that trouble to plan an amazing night (which turned out to be the best night ever) then London must not be so bad. That night H-T-B showed me the exciting side to London; the landmarks, the fame, the money, the swanky hotels, the West End (MEGA LUFF) the extortionate prices (we wont go there) and the big city at night. But H-T-B also introduced to me the opportunities London can hold for a person…..you can turn up in London as a nobody and with either hard work and dedication, become a somebody OR you can remain a nobody going about your daily life. London doesn’t care, London doesn’t force you to be somebody you don’t want to be.

London inspires. London provides more than enough inspiration to encourage a person to take a big leap. Every time I visit London (which believe me is nowhere near enough now I’ve grown to adore it) I feel this strange sense of security; I feel secure in myself to strive rather than fall apart.

But London also respects. London’s diversity embraces you as an individual. London doesn’t say ‘Hannah change your shoes’ or ‘Hannah don’t wear jeans and a hoody’ London says ‘Hannah, what are you going to do today?’

I embrace London and its emphasis on individuality and I always leave wanting more.

It is now of my opinion that you can either love London or hate it. But a change in perspective has made me feel that living in London and hating it is far less painful than being inspired by London – inspiration is often a dangerous and challenging thing – its like an aphrodisiac cocktail without the bad hangover and regret. But used in the right way and inspiration can be the driving force that makes you take that scary step.

for me, London (and yes I am still talking about the city) doesn’t make me realise that dreams can come true, it forces me to understand that I actually WANT my dreams to come true. It is amazing that one place can make a person achieve something, especially for me.

Who knows I may even be daring enough to move there one day. (I said ‘one day’ hubby-to-be lol)

Find what it is that inspires you and use that as your driving force to achieve your dreams. But above everything don’t change who you are – the world may or may not accept you but remain true to yourself regardless. The world is full of opportunities but if one doesn’t grab you have the confidence in yourself to make the opportunities that you want.

YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!!!

xOx

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**Thoughts For The Week**

I hate lessons that have to be learnt the hard way, but then, if lessons were easy to learn – they wouldn’t be lessons right?!

I have got a bug. No! Not A bug. THE bug! The performing bug. I just blinking knew it would return to haunt me at some point in my life and here it is right at the time I least expected I would need it….

During the last few months I have found myself re-living insecurities, forcing myself into situations I am very uncomfortable with; attempting to second guess the feelings and emotions of others and facing a demon which has troubled me for many years. All of which catapulted at me within the space of one classroom, during one lesson. The question is not how I could have let this happen…again, but rather, what am I, as a teacher, going to do about it? Eeeek!!

Racking my brains for professional ways to get a point across to my pupils, without them further intimidating me or their peers, is very challenging. Lining them all up against a wall and screaming “BULLYING IS NOT OK” is the best idea I have come up with so far.

This evening I sat with a cuppa in one hand and my wonderful iPod in my ears. I sat with no background noise and just focused on the music each song would play; on the words that would enter my mind in such a striking sense. It is funny how a song, one simple song, can transport you to a different place. How one song can envelop your whole being, making emotions surge through you body faster than the blood pumps around you. Tonight I was taken back to times when I was low; unhappy. Times where I couldn’t escape the intimidation and humiliation that I would face just by waking up each morning. I felt sick to my stomach remembering those times. And yet in the painful memories I remembered what pulled me through….faith, music, dance and drama. As much of a pain in the ass being a wanna-be-performer was to myself and those around me, I got through some of the hardest times of my teenage years by getting on that stage. 

As an adult, and especially as a teacher, I find it utterly heart-breaking watching pupils bully and intimidate their peers; more so than the bullying I was a victim of. At 16 I finally realised that this kind of behaviour was not acceptable in my life – that it was not acceptable full stop! It is my mission to teach every pupil of mine about equality – about being who you truly are despite what others think of you. But what do you do when you aren’t getting through? I do what I always do….I run to the stage.

Performing is my therapy; it is my way of dealing with life’s challenges. Whether that be part of a group, on a stage or in front of my own mirror…..performing is my escape. If I can channel all my anger and my emotions into one bundle of adrenalin, then I know I can perform to the best of my ability. Once I have performed I feel so elated that the anger I previously felt, doesn’t seem as bad. Whether I am teaching Drama or English, Maths or Science I aim to encourage all of my pupils to focus on their task, rather than what their peers or I think. Easier said then done I know but the basic implications that they have the right to be individual – to be themselves -speaks wonders for them and for their work.

Facing the issue of bullying once again in my adult life is something I have desperately wanted to avoid. This time around I may not be the victim of bullying but I am baring witness to such acts. Bullying is NOT ok people!!! As much as my peers or my pupils may hate me I will continue to enforce this – BULLYING IS NOT OK!! 

Thankfully my performing bug has returned and not only to help me but to help my pupils also. I want to encourage and inspire my students through the issues that they are facing in life but most of all, I want my pupils to realise that being different is ok – being different is beautiful.

Life is difficult…we are all very aware of this but finding something or someone to help you through its challenges, makes your journey that little bit less daunting. Performing may not be your option but something will be. Whatever or however you choose to fight through life’s barriers remember – you are beautiful in every way. Don’t ever let anyone tell you otherwise.  

xOx

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What God wants you to know…..

I saw this today and thought it was so lovely, and so true; I just had to re-post it….

“Your task is not to seek for love, but to seek and melt all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it. God loves you with the very air you breath, the very light that touches your skin, the very ground that supports you. Love is everywhere – melt your barriers and you will have love in abundance.”
~What God wants you to know.

 

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Thoughts for the week….

‘A candle looses nothing when it lights another candle’

xOx
(Image: Google Images)

Published in: on January 22, 2012 at 8:34 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Thoughts for the week….and more

Wow – what a week!!

Apologies that my blogs haven’t been posted this week; things have been crazy for me. I thought I would post a mega blog today combining my 3 regular posts into this one…..

Project 366

You know there is a 2-year-old in your house when…..

…..you cannot sit on the sofa.

Running a house and becoming a wife

My Mum gave me the most fabulous book, a book which at a first glance I wasn’t too keen on. The book is honestly amazing and has inspired me to get my act into gear and run my household properly. A well run household makes for an easier life and a happier wife (apparently) so I decided to give this a go. 

This week I learnt how to make Potato Rostis. My other half and I love these potato treats but to buy (the good ones) they are a little on the expensive side. Here’s how it went;

Stage One: Grate a peeled potato and squeeze out the juice.

Stage Two: Place a little butter into the frying pan (yes butter not oil) and spread the potato across the pan. Make sure the potato is evenly spread and is flat. Pour over the potato a little melted butter.

Stage Three: Once the bottom of the Rosti is cooked (you will tell as it will be compact enough to move when the pan is shaken) flip it onto the other side, making sure a little butter covers the bottom of the pan first. I cut mine into circle pieces.

Stage Four: Leave for around 10 minutes per side, until golden brown. Once they reach this stage they are ready to serve.

My pictures are a little on the rubbish side (rubbish camera) but still these were yum, yum, yummy, and sooo easy to make.

….. Of The Week 

These lovely treats came back into my life this week….

As did this amazing video…….

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ob7vObnFUJc&ob=av2n

This week; however, is summed up by Michael Kiwanuka’s song ‘I’m getting ready’ as it totally put my week into perspective. After a brilliant seven days; a fixed friendship, some lovely news, a brand new job and a few learnt lessons, I was reminded to thank God for every way He has blessed me this week.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wZsM1nAWw4M

 
Have a great week people and remember to be thankful for all of your blessings.

xOx

P.S. Quote of the week spoken by my dear, dear friend TheGlutenFreeBlogger
“If opportunity doesn’t knock – build a door!” 

…..of the week pictures from flixr, tumblr and google.

Published in: on January 15, 2012 at 8:38 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Thoughts For The Week

This week I have the following quotes hand written at the top of my diary

The time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time.
~Bertrand Russell

and

There’s really no such thing as impossible for you
because all things are possible with God
There’s no mountain too high
No valley too deep
No trial to wide to stand in His way
He’s with you, for you
Working on your behalf today
And many who care are praying with you
and standing beside you
Until we see the impossible come true
~Holley Gerth

  Have a good, positive week and in all that you do remember rest, playtime and thanking God are just as important as the hard work that you do.
xOx

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**Words For The Day**

This is your life – make a stand!
xOx

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Thoughts For The Day

Some days I just cannot get anything productive done. It isn’t because I am lacking the motivation to do certain things but is more a lack of actual ability to write, act, do or say anything of any worth. Today is one of those days. I guess this is a precise reason why I would class myself as a creative – I cannot function if I have that burning desire to sing or write or play the piano. That burning creative desire takes over my being – it is almost like life doesn’t carry on until I have released the creativeness that I need too. This is why I am sat on my patio step, drinking a lovely cuppa (and dunking a Jammie dodger) whilst looking at the wonderful blue sky – after all you cannot be creative if you don’t have any inspiration. The sky tonight looks great – so do the clouds. Everything about the sky tonight is screaming freedom at me. How I wish, wish, wish I could be up there soaring through the clouds feeling the breeze on my face.

It is skies like tonight that capture what I imagine heaven to be like. I imagine heaven as taking the very best of something amazing and making it 10, 000, 000 times better. Like taking all of your problems, taking all of the troubles that occur in the world and making them 10, 000, 000 times smaller – so small that you cannot see or feel them. Skies like tonight reminds me of what it means to be free – free from a world of selfishness and unkindness.

Free – beautiful, wonderful free =D

x

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